#5 "Crawling" 3:29
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never-ending
Controlling/ I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
{Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take}
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
Its haunting how I can't seem...
# 8 In The End 3:36
It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on/but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried/It all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be a memory/of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
And loose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing/I don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me/I'm surprised
It got so {far}
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried/It all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be a memory/of a time when I
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know....
#12 Pushing Me Away 3:12
I've lied/to you
The same way that I always do
This is/the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you
{Everything falls apart/ Even the people who never frown/
Eventually break down}
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
{Everything has to end/ you'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind}
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
I've tried/Like you
To do everything you wanted to
This is/the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you